BEST FRIENDS

Sex is one of the few reasons why people pay any sort of attention to each other. Especially when it comes to people of different genders. I have seen the most ridiculous mixes of couples that never make it past a week, and its all because of this strong bond that is created by sex. Of course having the same hairy moron sweating and moaning like a beached whale on top of you, or having barbie screech like a weasel in a blender reaching for the ceiling fan will get old but people never seem to learn the lesson. I think one of the things that keeps me from having sex with people is the fact that by having sex I'm running the chance of getting this person pregnant and having to be in contact with this fucking idiot for the rest of my life. I wish people would think things through a little more...maybe i'd get less calls from female friends bawling about how they might be pregnant. That's always a wonderful thought too- at the news of your conception your mother wished it never happened and essentially freaked the fuck out. Your existence and relationship to this woman had to be justified after the fact. Isn't that heart warming? Charming? It really is...great story to. It's kinda like the relationships that you will construct in your adult life work partners then friends, lovers then friends, that weird guy that always has drugs then friends. Alot of these relationships can be justified not on the basis of a true connection, but exactly on just justifications. Because one person stands to gain something. The faults of the other person are reasoned out-creating a shallow, relationship that is wrapped up more in formalities, and awkward interactions/ expectations. It's filler...if your life is so boring, and sex is the one thing that keeps you going- the attention you receive from someone else that just wants your body for pleasure, or your presence because essentially there life is as lonely as yours then you have to change something in your life. Most people go outwards with the idea, I've chosen to go in. People can be swallowed up by their own short comings if they search for answers outside of themselves, and through other people. A little fucking confidence in yourself can go a long way. Confidence is not a tool to help you meet people- for me anyway, it's more like the ability to be able to stand back, say no and look at yourself and always have a critique. If our ideas can never be purely expressed then there is always a critique of ourselves to be made.